#BUT YOU WILL ADORE CMI11 !!!!! I KNOW YOU WILL

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regarding: colour me in — i think you guys are gonna love cmi10 and 11 so much bc.. :(

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Rid you're crazyyyyyyyyyyy

just finished cmi11 IM FUCKING CRYING holy shit that was so good oh god

first of all the conversation between oc and her mom made me cry so hard- it hit home for me, as a girlie with mommy issues, that part felt so real to me. Oc's courage to stand up for herself like that and tell her how much she hurt her own daughter is something i dont have in me. It broke my fucking heart, that yearning feeling, i cant believe you put that specific feeling into words rid [are u part of the mommy issues community as well🧐 or are u just that amazing, a true fucking artist (i saw that anon calling you the beyonce of ff and i agree 100%)] idk how to describe my feelings rn, that part definitely left a mark in my heart, ill never forget it

second the domesticity in these two dorks oh my goddddd they're driving me crazy, theyre so cute and in love and im in love with them and i want to cry bc i want what they have but bc irl men suck the hopeless romantic in me is gonna have to live through fanfics for the rest of my life and that makes me fucking miserable but bless the fanfic gods like you that keep my soul alive, idk what id do without you

lastly that scareeeeee oh god like i knew itd be a negative but it had my heart beating out of my ass (idk if thats a phrase) but the way they handled it oh god, the emotionsssssss the fears and insecurities, just reminded me that theyre human, even if theyre the most fucking adorable characters ever, theyre still human and i loved seeing such nuance. You really are doing an amazing job rid, not only writing the story, scenes and dialogue, but also the way you write these characters in such depth, its so fucking refreshing to see.

i want to kiss your beatiful head that holds your beautiful brain, seriously ive never ever been so enchanted by a piece of writing before (and i read so much fanfiction its like an addiction) you are by far my strongest fix. For real tho, your writing, and particularly cmi has touched me deeply and I'll never ever forget it. So thank you

Rest assured and stop doubting yourself bc youre seriously incredible and so fucking talented. Now rest up and take care of yourself, i imagine its not easy to birth such work (i mean 36k you monster, i loved every second of it but damn girl take a break before you burn your brain out) but no srsly i hope youre eating well, sleeping well and doing things that make you happy and relaxed. You deserve all the best of this world rid🫂🩷

sincerely ~ 🐼✒️anon

panda hi hello oh my gosh, sorry for being late, but you mentioned so many important things, so i wanted to take my time HELLO!! never stop sending these lovely af reviews 🥺

i know... she really is inspiring bc the courage to stand up against someone you feared for so long is admirable. i'm part of both the mommy and daddy issues community even though it's gotten a lot better lol like i wonder why it's such a recurring theme in my fics 🤣 i'm so sorry you could relate to oc :( but i'm glad you liked the scene so much.

and ahhh the domesticity 🤧 it's been so so fun and relaxing to write!! real life romance can be hard to find, yeah :') so i guess writing these scenes and chapters has been extra cathartic (although it drives me crazy, too — the next chapter has been making me so jejfhdjjsgd), but here's to finding a cmi jk irl soon :') much more to come!!!🕯️

the scare was one hell of a ride 🥺 i cried a lot!! and even i have been realising lately that i sometimes try to make my characters flawless, but that's actually not what i wanna go for. i always snap out of it and then try to make them flawed bc they're human, and i think the cmi couple, despite how endearing they are, is definitely vv flawed :') thank you for pointing that out 🥺

your strongest fix?? girl PLEASE ILL CRY 😭💔 i love you so much, you're so sweet for saying that and seeing me in such a way, pls i want you here forever <3 i rested a lot after cmi11! but ngl, cmi11.5 almost burned me out ksjdhehd gonna rest even more after that hehe. tyssssm, i hope you're well and healthy and i appreciate you so much for your kindness, reassurances and love for this series/me. love you so much 🤍

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Tumblr back in the days must be hectic, oh i wish i was here to experience that :(

Since i am on tumblr. Two of the accounts that i have followed are no longer active. One of them, who i used to interact with, desactivate her account and i just notice that yesterday… I know there are motives to her decision but I still am shocked.

I share the same opinion as anon, Bub if you ever decide to leave tumblr please tell us. And please let us now where or how we can reach out to you, if decided so. Althought, it is so fun to interact with you here. You genuinely bring us happiness and comfort especially with your stories. But whatever it is and of course the best for you, we wouldn’t go against your decision ngl tho i’ll be sad :( guilty sorry

Oh and hi beautiful, outside that, how are you? I am back after my mini break. I decided to go to London last minute lol, thought it will help me a bit but even there bangtan was everywhere went to a kbbq, they blasted seven then proceed with bangtan songs, spring day was my last straw.. Oh and I also found myself another book that made me cry again lol, finished reading it in two days! Otherwise i feel rested and ready to binge read every single update you’re gonna give us, cmi11.5? another one shot? argh, I still can’t get over cmi latest update🥹

axelle hi 🥺 it was hectic in a fun way! we were all here supporting each other, or in networks, talking all day. it was an easier time, honestly, when there wasn't as much negativity or odd envy between people 😭 i do miss a lot of those who have left, though sigh. i'm sorry some of the accounts you liked aren't around anymore either :(

and i will <3 i definitely do not want to make such a decision without telling you guys, bc you've given me so much and it'd be so unfair of me to do that. it'd need so much courage, too, though. but i'm… also so emo over the fact that you feel that way about me. i appreciate you so much, and can assure each one of you that you've been an anchor and comfort and joy and fun to me. ily ily ily and please don't be sad <3

i'm okay, love. life's just been… a struggle haha but i'm glad you're back and doing better and finding good books to read 🥺 awh shucks, the london trip turning into a bts sob fest ufdksjfks i'm sorry!! still hope you had fun!! AND YES 11.5 and a oneshot on their way!!! i also saw your review to cmi11 and i swear, i adore you fr 😔🤍

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Honey,don’t you dare think that way.I’ll be sad and gloomy if you’ll leave Tumblr. Cause I adore having you here.You’re like one of those people who remind one of home or a warm hug after a long day of the world’s hustle.I don’t know about others but it would affect ME if you’d leave.

thank you for saying that, you're a warm hug, too. always <3 i'm just stupid!! i have these lil thoughts every now and then, and i'm probably imagining it all but!!

i really can't explain the dumb thoughts in my head lmao like sometimes i do feel like content creators give more than they receive? and especially over that last year, i've been feeling a lawt like i don't belong here bc people might not want me here, i hate feeling unwelcome jskahfjkajs and it's also been so lonely. mutuals interact with each other and have fun, and i feel super secluded in my corner lol. and even with cmi11.. i'm so dang excited for it, but i always get sad bc i think readers just might not be excited about it/want it anymore orrrr might not react (bc that chapter is so so dear to me :')) and yeah it sucks sometimes. hard to explain